Even after truly learning that Islam is nothing more than human revelations, I couldn't take the FINAL step of leaving it and had to remain attached to Islam for a while longer.
Especially, the last question was: "What if Allah reveals Himself after my death?"
I contemplated this question from every perspective before directing my last words to Allah:
"Oh Allah! If indeed You exist and You are aware of the depths of my heart, then You would see that I have earnestly sought the truth.
However, my sincere search has convincingly led me to the belief within my heart that You do not exist. It is my inherent sense of humanity that leads me to conclude that your system (Islam) is built upon hostility towards humanity.
Do You truly desire for me to become a hypocrite? Should I outwardly acknowledge Your existence despite the internal denial in my heart and mind?
And if I refuse to be a hypocrite, will You condemn me to eternal damnation, even though my heart is true? Will all the good deeds I have done for the betterment of humanity go to waste, leading me to eternal torment?
Therefore, if I am to be held accountable for my disbelief in You, then 'first,' You must answer for Your failure to provide sufficient evidence of Your existence. You must explain why I couldn't recognize You despite my genuine search for You. Why do you condemn billions of people, born into non-Muslim families by Your design, to burn in eternal hellfire simply because they did not become Muslims?
If You reject my sincere intentions, then either Your promise of 'Verily, the reward of deeds depends on the intentions' is false, or Your promise of eternal hellfire is false."
These were my last words to Allah. I never addressed Him thereafter.
These words served as a "powerful argument" for me, and they encouraged me to finally take that last step of leaving Islam.
Pascal's wager is a well-known concept that revolves around the question of what would happen if God appeared after one's death. It was originally proposed by Blaise Pascal (1623–1662) and takes a pragmatic approach. Pascal believed that evidence alone cannot definitively prove or disprove the existence of God. Therefore, he suggests that one should bet, or wager, on the existence of God due to the potential gains and minimal losses involved.
However, the idea of Pascal's wager can be applied to various situations. For instance, even if you disagree with this post, you may still feel compelled to praise it, fearing that not doing so will result in illness the following week. In this case, the cost of praising it is minimal, as it only requires keeping your thoughts positive. So, why take the risk? And remember to have your children praise it as well! After all, you wouldn't want them to fall ill, would you?